urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:miss_legendarymiss_legendarymiss_legendarymiss_legendary2009-01-05T02:57:59Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:miss_legendary:858blah blah2009-01-05T02:57:59Z2009-01-05T02:57:59ZIt's sunday....I have another exciting week of work ahead of me....not. <br />We finally managed to get GOW2. And I'm super happy about it. I have been thinking a lot about getting WoW. I watched the guild on xbox live and I wanna get into PC gaming. I'm bored.....Arrrr.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:miss_legendary:582at the end of my rope.2008-11-17T21:13:15Z2008-11-17T21:13:15ZThis week just isn't starting off well.<br />Mikel is irritated.<br />Cause I text message him while I'm working and he was worried that I was doing it in front of everyone...And because the ass holes he works with are lazy.<br />I'm so scared.<br />I don't know why but I feel extremely nervous about things.<br />He loves me and I love him. <br />I think I deal with the everyday stress of live pretty well.<br />I don't freak out about many things.<br />I try so hard but it just seems like things don't go my way.<br />I try to make his life easier but I guess I don't do a good enough job.<br />And it makes me feel bad.<br />It's an Emo Monday.<br />We seem to have a lot of those.<br /><br /><br />I am completely without self confidence these days<br />I sit and I wait for the day when he will just up and leave my life.<br />I know that it won't happen....but still. I can't understand why God sent me such an amazing person. He takes care of me and Jack. He loves us more than any man has ever loved his family. He worries about me (sometimes a little too much) <br />Every man I have ever known has cheated. My Father...my brother....my boyfriends. It's like it can't be stopped and it's scary because I don't know that I would have the strength to forgive him...and if I couldn't forgive him I don't know what I would do. It's all just paranoia. Nothing more. He wouldn't ever do it. and he has never given me any reason to suspect anything...if anything it's the opposite. He has proven himself and his loyalty time and again yet...these nasty little thoughts creep around in the shadows of my mind leaving doubt where they step. Is this normal for a little girl who grew up with a broken family?